1) HASA, where I think my problem is that, though there are challenges, there is no sense of immediacy to do them, which always got me going. And
2)at the LOTR100, which I badly badly miss. This was my writing lifeline recently, and through all the ups and downs of having a moderator missing in action, I think we were challenging each other with some pretty interesting ideas that could be bent in different ways.
SInce our mod returned out of the blue, I have see nothing that speaks to me. Partly that's because she started us off with challenges we had just recently done, and partly because the new challenges just don't speak to me at all. There are people doing great work over there, so I realize it's me - but I have found the new challenges limiting instead of broadening, and overly specific. The new challenge about switching bodies, for instance, strikes me as completely alien to Arda. (though apparently I amused Chris by threatening to switch Elladan and Elrohir in an old Patty Duke show kind of way, with no-one noticing)
I feel like Cinnabar - (a cat, now gone) who would watch his sister eat something he didn't like and look at us as if to clearly complain -Why don't *I* like it - as if we could fix it.
that brings me to the *why* part. I have come to realize I am a cranky drabbler. It's directed at myself, so I don't feel as bad about it as I would if it were directed outward.
But I can't convince myself 100 words is a drabble unless it gets me somewhere. I can't get a drabble by counting off words any more than I get a haiku by counting syllables. So, though I can almost always give you 100 words on demand, they would not necessarily be a drabble to me.
the other side of this coin is - I keep seeing drabbles being posted with disclaimers like
"I went slightly over 100 words, but I didn't want to lose any of the ideas." I look at these sentences like they are in a foreign language. Isn't that the idea?
Yeah, I've been known to go over, but in formal steps. 150s, 250s and series - but working to the form without losing the ideas *is* the idea for me.
I wonder if that comes from writing obsessive poetry to form. not too many of them let you add a stanza (the terza rima is the only one that comes to my mind) or change the pattern -- still less add a ramdom line, and still call it by name.
It seems to me these random length drabblers have missed the point. But I suppose the likely answer is that they have a different point than I do, and that perhaps form has made me linguistically anal.